Letters from Crystal Meth Users

• Feb
  03

  Loosing Oscar

  I met this wonderful man named Oscar and he was my life! He would do anything and everything for me. He proposed to me and we got married after three years of being together. Six months after getting married, he started coming home at around 3 am and I was so upset and depressed. I thought he was cheating on me with a woman. I found out he was cheating on me alright with a drug named "Tina." Of course I had never used drugs before so I didn't know the signs but all I knew is that he needed help. He went to rehab and to meetings and he even went to jail for distribution of Meth.

  I just wanted the man I knew back so I could be happy again. After trying several months to help him and found that it wasn't working, I gave up. Not only was he yelling at me for no reason, he was getting violent. At the time I was having a problem with my weight and he told me that if I did the drug I would lose lots of weight and be pretty again. So I did. I started using the drug and I lost over 100 pounds in less than 6 months. I was doing about a gram every day. My eyes were sunken in my head; I had hair loss, my breath smelled from my teeth starting to rot, and not to mention I lost my job.

  Things started to get really bad between Oscar and I. We would get into these huge fights and hit each other. I never wanted that. I was also in school at the time with a year left of college to receive my BBA. One night I almost killed my husband because he pushed me down the stairs. I then realized I needed to stop. So after almost a year of doing Meth I stopped cold turkey. I left my husband and moved in with my mother and father to start my new life again. I started going to meetings, and realizing that my life was far more important than the one I was living. My mother and father took me to a dentist and I had my teeth done. I went back to school (with 8 months left and I'll have my BBA), and I am focusing on ME! Never again will I let that drug rule my life. "Things do not change, we change. Henry David Thoreau"
  
  Oscar's Wife

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  Posted on February 3rd, 2011

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