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Feb
08Lost In Hell
All I know, is I need help. I can't say it to many more times. I am lost and I miss me. I love myself. I love the girl I know the one that no longer can find my head. I fucked up. I can't do this anymore. I need to get help and fast before I no longer see it for myself. If there is a God; I call upon his name no father help me, for I have sinned. I sold my soul to the devil and he will not let it go. If I would have only known.
Why is it I can't stand this drug, but yet I need it so bad to get out of bed? I don't get out I stay trapped in my house, as if I don't exist. It's time. I pray to God some one hears me calling out. My soul hurts. My life is broken into thousands of pieces. I cry out to you, if you can hear me. I am scared lost and need help. Someone please find me and fix it.
I would do anything to just wake up one day and find out this was all just a bad dream. I miss my life. I miss my kids, my friends, and my siblings. This demon has stripped me of all my well-being and life as I once knew it to be. Will I ever find me again? I am crying out for help. If there is a God and you know him; tell him I love him and need him maybe he will hear you.
For some reason, he can't hear me anymore. I know that Satan in real and I know that hell exist. I live in it every day. If anything pray for me and my soul. It's hot in hell and I don't want to go to hell. My babes need me in heaven to look after them. I need to be their when they enter the gates of heaven. Thank you for your time.
Nicole
