Meth Addict's Personal Stories

Feb
21

Substance Abuse Leads to Meth Addiction

I'm Teresa. As some of you know, I had a year of being meth free. I found the old forum about a year and a half ago. I found a lot of support there. I met a lot of great people that have helped me and supported me when I had rough days. I want to thank you all for being there for me when I needed you. After a while, I got more things going on and got pretty busy and took a break from the forum.

There were times I'd get triggered reading posts. Sometimes I have to NOT even be reminded of it. I felt I needed to move on and do stuff that had nothing to do with drugs or probation.

I like the new forum and this new site too. My family is my biggest blessing too. If it were not for them no telling where I’d be now. My meth experience all began in late 1993. I would like to share my experience with you!

Welcome to all newcomers. My first experience with substances was in 8th grade, I drank beer and freshman year I got turned onto pot. I started out just occasionally using pot and alcohol. Then later on I got introduced to cocaine, which was my favorite for a while. I can’t pinpoint when I first experienced painkillers and sedatives, but I always had a tendency to self-medicate. When I tried something, I knew right away if it agreed with me or not. I had times of complete sobriety from drugs and alcohol in the past, but never a whole year.

I seemed to click with others that liked the same music and shared the same interests as me. Sometimes drugs would get brought up. Anyway, one day some friends came over. We were talking about different things, listening to some good tunes. The subject of cocaine came up and then someone mentioned, “If you like coke, you’ll love this”. They broke out some meth and we, (my husband, friends and I), snorted some and wow it burned my nose like an mf, but the high was the best I had. Then I got introduced to smoking it and I was sold.

I felt like, this is it, and it was the drug of my choice for years. After a while, I got to where I wanted it more and more. Every time I knew some was coming or we went to get some, I would get elated just knowing. I learned how to make pipes. I would get a brand new pipe made for the new batch. After being up all night and day and another night and another and so on, it would take its toll on us. We’d get in these awful fights.

When wearing off/coming down, we would hurt all over and feel like shit. There were times I wanted to quit. I would take a break from it for a few weeks but I never really had my heart in quitting for good. Well we went through some rough times, separated a couple times and almost went through divorce twice. Well summer 2001 I got arrested for possession. I almost lost my family, freedom, etc. I decided no high is worth losing everything!

Well today I'm happy to say I'm meth free and things are so much better for now. For the longest time I thought, I couldn't go this long without it, no way. I still have thoughts of it that haunt me, but it does get better and easier with time. I'm enjoying other things in life now. It can be done. It's not easy, but possible if someone wants to quit bad enough. I'm thankful that we have places like this to come to. There are many here who have been there, done that. Don't give up. There is hope. There are success stories. Most of all I thank the Lord God for many answered prayers. May God bless you all, Teresa
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Posted on February 21st, 2011
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Jessica M.

October 28th, 2011

I never thought I would be an addict. I used drugs at parties and with friends socially on occasion but didn't really ever think I could become addicted to anything. I loved my family and had a happy life so why would I be an addict was my thinking. One time at a great party we were at a friend of mine thought I might like to give meth a shot. I thought about it and decided why not, I'm not an addict. I tried it and liked it immediately. After the party I didn't really think about it until we went to another party and I looked for it. Then I found myself trying to find it even when I was going to a party. Before I knew it I was doing it all the time and spending all my money on it. I didn't care that I didn't have enough money to pay my bills because I wanted that high.

I realized this was happening when I opened the door one morning to someone handing me an eviction notice for the rent I hadn't paid in months. I was out on the street and had no place to go. My family didn't want to take me in because somehow along the way I had lost their trust. I was on the street and had no place to live, lost my job and found myself still looking for meth. It was then that I decided to check myself into a treatment program. I needed help figuring out how to control myself.
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Kathy C.

October 28th, 2011

I always knew how to party with my friends and used whatever drug was handy to get a high. Then left the party and went back to my life and didn't think about it again. One day I was at my neighbor's house and she was doing meth. She offered some to me and I thought why not, it had been a long day. I had experience nothing like it ever before. I found myself going back to her house again and again through the week for more and then had her take me to buy it. Before long I was spending most of my paycheck on it and using all the time. Every day I used and didn't see the problem until I didn't go to work for three days and got fired. I decided I needed to cool it and stopped, for two days before I had to go get more meth.

It took me almost losing all I had to decide to get help. I didn't understand how I went from occasionally partying and using drugs recreationally to not being able to do without meth. I thought of myself as being a smart person and didn't get how I could be addicted to this drug. I was embarrassed and didn't know how to manage the addiction on my own. An outpatient treatment center was the only way I could get off the drugs and start focusing on life again. I had become someone I didn't recognize anymore.
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Heather M.

October 28th, 2011

I can completely relate to people who say they don't understand how they got where they are and how they could possibly be addicted to meth. I woke up one day with the same thought. I was a recreational drug user at parties and with friends on the occasion until I came upon meth. I figured it was just another party drug and I wanted to see what it would do for me. So I went for it. After the first time I was hooked. I couldn't get enough. I needed to find the next score before I was barely finished with the high I was on. I did this at the expense of my family and friends who tried to tell me I was getting out of control. One day I woke up someplace I didn't recognize with a group of people I had never seen before all of which looked like they had been getting high all night. I didn't know where my car was, my keys, my wallet and had no clue where I was.

I had to overcome the humiliation of being addicted and ask for help in order to get off meth. Finding help was hard and embarrassing because I didn't get how I could be an addict. I liked my life before I was a meth addict and would never willingly trade it for a high. That is just what I was doing and I nearly lost everything. My family didn't trust me and my friends just felt sad for me.

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