Methamphetamine Abuse Poems

• Jan
  14

  My Internal Confusion

  I escape my problems
  I ignore my fears
  I cover my pain
  And don't shed tears
  I don't want to face up To what I already know
  I have SEEN the ending
  Of my reality show
  To me this drug's a doorway,
  A way to run from it all
  If I re-enter to reality
  I know that I will fall
  You should be the one to catch me
  But it's not you who's there
  This drug is in your place
  And you say I'm unfair
  You gave me the Ultimatum
  "It's me or this drug"
  And you say these words with nothing more
  Than a cold, heartless shrug
  You said I have a choice to make
  And you want my answer now
  I want to choose, I really do
  But I simply don't know how
  I'm so afraid that I am losing
  Every single thing I worked for
  I feel as if the one I love is
  Pushing me through that door
  When I reached the point of no return
  And even tried to die
  I said I didn't love you
  We both know THAT'S a lie
  I love you more than anything
  When you are truly there
  But I hate you even more
  When you act like you don't care
  If you love me like you say you do
  Then why can't you realize
  I'm not asking you to move mountains
  Just simply open up your eyes
  If you could see inside my heart
  Then you'd know without a doubt
  I'm not the "Tweaker" you say I am
  Meth's NOT what I'm about
  I want to choose you Oh So Bad
  Without giving Meth a chance
  I wish I could move on
  Without a second glance
  But that isn't even possible
  Not with the way things are today
  I feel as if I'm in control
  "This drug's not in my way"
  I know you're not responsible
  Meth's not your claim to fame
  But through the glass Life's wonderful
  Right then it's not "The Game"
  I will always look back and wonder
  If I can truly cope
  I know when things get rough
  I'll always think of dope
  I want to not have an addiction
  I wish I could get clean
  When I want it I feel bad
  Cause I think it's you that's mean
  I know It's not just hurting me
  When I think about the past
  I know I don't have time to waste
  Life comes at you TOO FAST!
  
  Ashley C. West Jordan, UT

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  Posted on January 14th, 2011

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